Sharing Some Poetry

I am a writer. I write lots of different things as I value diversity and versatility. But my first love is poetry. Has been and always will be. So I just thought I'd share a few of my many many poems with you today. This is just a small sampling. Very small.

Can somebody explain this to me

How exactly this came to pass

Sitting here drowning in mediocrity

With only my visions of the past

Hey there old familiar friend

Why didn’t you call me first

To let me know this is the end

At least then it wouldn’t hurt

I cannot figure out how it went wrong

One moment in ecstasy

Then the tragic end of the song

Colors are never quite so clear

As when you stand alone in the dark of night

Could there be an escape plan formed

To turn this plane around and retake the flight

Or am I gonna sit here in judgment from the liars chair

For the rest of eternity never being able to move on

The sanctimony of those with self-righteous indignation

Chills me to my fucking very last bone

Why do they gotta be so repulsive and evil

Is there no second chances involved in this land

Maybe if this is the truth of the matter

I will never be able to care or to understand

The strangers that look at me with such disgrace

Are no longer men of mystery

I see myself in their hollowed out eyes

And begin to swallow my own self-pity

For that is all I have left now

The only truth that is to be revealed

Is whether or not I continue to believe

Or will it forever remain unsealed

Only god truly knows the answer

DONT FEED THE MONSTER

Infiltrate, fabricate, annihilate

That is your creed

Why do you sell yourselves out

For power and greed

You’d sell your own soul

You’d dirty your own mind

If your ends justify your means

You will leave all the good behind

You are sick and full of lies

The hypocrisy is never ending

The deliberation of your malignancy

Is now what is considered trending

Suppress the truth while promoting lies

And falsifying the facts of the matter

You are devils in human form

Trying to divide us all and then scatter

Your filth is infecting our souls

A little more each and every hour

The pervasive narrative is the majority

And it’s gaining more and more power

I am sick to my stomach, can hardly stand

What is happening to all of humanity

Have we gone mad and lost our minds

Our sense of honor and morality

Why do we let you corrupt us

With such impure and dirty speak

Do we really have no reason left

Are we so despondent and weak

I can’t even watch it anymore

Its becoming too grotesque to see

If something is not done soon

We are all headed toward anarchy

Drinking Binge

I drink when my life is heaven

I drink when my life is hell

I drink when I feel sick

I drink when I feel well

I drink in times of joy

I drink in times of sorrow

I drink for the memory of yesterday

I drink to the hopes and fears of tomorrow

I drink to feel good

I drink to feel bad

I drink more than I should

And I drink until I go mad

I drink for my past

To escape it and forget

I drink for my present

So I can feel content

I drink for my future

As yet unknown pathway

So I don’t give into the fear

That holds me back from breaking away

I drink to gain control

Of my fragile sanity

And I drink to numb my soul

So I don’t have such clarity

I drink because I like alcohol

The taste of liquor so sweet

It is the best friend I have

The greatest friend I will ever meet

It doesn’t judge me at all

Or label me in any way

Booze let’s me step up to the call

And doesn’t get in my way

I love drinking and getting wasted out of my motherfucking mind

It is far superior to being sober

And feeling as if I have been left behind

RECOVERY

Im an addict

Yes I admit

I am unable to stop

And am unwilling to quit

I haven’t had a drink today

I am stone cold sober

I am not walking around

In a drunken stupor

Or with that cloudy haze

In my eyes or head

I haven’t been straight

In years but messed up instead

I can’t remember

The last time I was whole

Without a substance

Being in control

Of my mind

And my sanity

I can’t believe

I am able to see

So much more clearly

Through this new set of eyes

It’s brighter outside

Than I was able to realize

I want to live

And I want to be happy

I want to do so much

I want to find my humanity

What I lost so long ago

By my inability to cope

Here I sit in sober silence

With optimism and hope

SWEET BLISS

There is no bliss quite like this

A feeling so pure and sweet

It’s like the very first kiss

Of that someone special you meet

You just know it in your heart

And feel it in your soul

That how you two have taken your start

Is the best memory you will ever know

Two hearts joined as one that day

The love felt in a quiet instant of pleasure

All the words that a person can say

Is not nearly enough to measure

There is no bliss quite like this

And there will never be again

The taste of that sweet kiss

Will linger on until eternity’s end

LOVE SONG OF MY SOUL

And to the depths of my soul

You complete me and

You make me feel whole

How I lived my life before

You were in it is a mystery

I was so alone and isolated

I was living in such agony

Then I found you and it all changed

My whole perspective was different

I began to see things another way

And I will never ever forget

The way my life changed that first day

You and I had our first meeting of the soul

And since then, how we have been bonded

And never again will I lose my self-control

Since you have a way with me

And are able to keep me grounded so much

I will never be the same again

And that thought makes me so grateful for your every touch

You are my angel

You are my life

I will always love you

And will never again feel such strife

So this is my love poem to you

Instead of a song or a letter I could never send

The words written are the song of my soul

Which is at peace without an end

IN SPITE OF YOU

You told me I couldn’t

And I said I will

You told me I shouldn’t

And yet I did still

You said I’d never make it

I said watch me soar

You said I’d eventually break it

And yet I have gained even more

You wanted to hold me back

But I kept pushing ahead

You wanted to stop me by a verbal attack

But here I am on top instead

You tried desperately to keep me down

And yet here I stand

You tried desperately to knock me around

And yet I am here in victory raising my hand

                DRIFTING AWAY

Hardened inside

With no feeling

Only numbness

The mind goes reeling

At the desolate darkness

And the deep solitude

There is nothing left

Creating a bad attitude

Look for something

Anything to cling to

If only there was a reason to hope

To make it through

To the other side

And find the light

And bask in its infinite glory

And know that everything is all right

Oh if only that were true

And the darkness would dissipate

But it won’t as it’s not temporary

And your heart is ready to anticipate

The hurt caused by others

The pain in your chest

You can’t trust anyone

And you can’t let your past rest

So you drift

Endlessly and aimlessly

Just looking for a place

To rest your head

And a warm embrace

Seems impossible

To find a refuge at all

It seems to be hopeless

As if nobody hears your call

You cry so many tears

You weep all night long

You can’t believe you

Can’t right a simple wrong

And you just drift

Farther and farther away

Until you no longer

Have anything to say

Okay well thats enough for now. I'll leave you with these. But there are plenty more where these came from and they just keep coming

Until next time
Mel